I didn't learn how to use magic. Mom was convinced that all it would take was for me to swim, but no matter how much I swam, all I felt was water. Maxine said that she couldn't help me, because she only knew holy magic, and permanent spells were structurally different from cast spells. Maxine said that we should delay our holy magic lessons until after I learned how to access magic for cast spells to avoid confusing me any further. So, I couldn't sense Mom's magic, Maxine wasn't teaching me hers, and my own unique magic currently involved either biting people to death or almost killing myself.