This is hands down one of my favorite Korean BL webnovels of all time. I understand the low ratings because their relationship starts out VERY rocky and there's a lot of nonconsensual content involved in the beginning, but their development over the course of the novel is phenomenal. The growth that both characters, although mostly on Seo Euiwoo's part, undergo cannot be understated. That's not to say that Kwon Jaejin doesn't have his own baggage that he has to deal with.
The plot revolves around Kwon Jaejin, an ordinary man, who one day encounters Seo Euiwoo, an esper, on his way home. Jaejin is then exposed as a guide (a "mutant," or a late awakener) and gets kidnapped and imprisoned by Euiwoo for four years. It takes four years of back-and-forth fighting and development until they finally understand each other and even start dating. However, one day, a gate (like a portal) opens up in Euiwoo's mansion while Euiwoo isn't home, and Jaejin dies. The story then takes place when Jaejin goes back in time to four years ago.
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- Being a mutant means the government wants you dead, plain and simple. Jaejin and Euiwoo's chance encounter was mainly due to the fact that Euiwoo, the only S-Class Esper in Korea, couldn't be guided by anyone who wasn't S-Class, and Jaejin is the first S-Class guide to ever exist. The government wants "mutants" dead only because they can't control them. Normally, once a baby is tested to be a guide or esper, they are forcefully kidnapped into the military and raised as a weapon. They are not raised with any morality, just to be military dogs who follow orders. While this doesn’t excuse Euiwoo’s actions, it helps explain why the novel focuses on his development as a human being.
- The main reason Euiwoo kidnaps and keeps Jaejin prisoner in his mansion is because the government is extremely likely to find Jaejin and kill him if Euiwoo lets him go back home. Even Jaejin himself is aware of this, but he still hates it.
So, yes, even though the couple is extremely problematic, I still can't help but love the story. Jaejin's grief over his lover, the twenty-four-year-old Seo Euiwoo that he left behind after regressing, and his fear that he was "killing him" by changing the timeline are powerful themes. A significant portion of the novel is about Jaejin learning to live with this grief and finding a way to move forward. He is rational but also very compassionate to those around him, which becomes more evident in the second half of the novel when things get intense. His compassion really shines through in the end.
I could spoil so many of the twists, especially the big one that left my jaw hanging wide open, but I choose not to. Reading the novel the first time was such a ride because both leads kept needing to develop for the sake of the plot, adapting to every new situation and fighting at every moment just to live happily. Like, my god. THEY ARE FIGHTING HARD!!!!
I know the nonconsensual content will be a huge turn-off to a lot of readers, and I understand why 100000%, but Euiwoo really grew on me as the novel went on, and even though he's totally crazy, I think the main character is also a bit crazy.
Jaejin definitely gives off "I Will Fix Him Vibes" at the beginning, but as the novel progresses, you realize that Seo Euiwoo definitely corrupted him a little. LMAOOOO Jaejin became just as equally obsessed with Euiwoo, and the commenters were SCREAMING for it. It’s only fun when both are on the same level, after all ;)
**Spoiler**
BTW, they definitely have a lot of intense sexual scenes. Like, seriously... not even going into detail. If you’re a veteran of this genre, you can probably imagine it yourself.
I will always defend this novel even knowing how problematic it is because their development is *chef's kiss* to me. The novel explores so many unique and interesting ideas from a regression and worldbuilding standpoint that I can't help but love it for what it is. Author, please release more side stories! I love them too much...
**Edit with Major Spoilers:**
I have a lot of thoughts about this novel, and I'll still love and defend it to the very end. I actually reread it recently, so I have a more fresh take on it. I disagree that the author tries to make the reader forgive the nonconsensual aspects; I think the author has a decent amount of self-awareness regarding the unhealthy parts of their dynamic. A lot of revealed information is drip-fed since Kwon Jaejin isn't the most reliable narrator. The author makes it very clear that a lot of Seo Euiwoo's actions are unforgivable and inexcusable, especially the big one later on. A lot of Kwon Jaejin's built-up and suppressed spite resurfaces when it's revealed that Seo Euiwoo wiped his memories of his childhood and family. I don't think Kwon Jaejin ever truly forgives Seo Euiwoo for that (even after things get resolved), at least there's no indication of it. But I wholeheartedly believe he can still love Seo Euiwoo despite that. Is it realistic? Not really. But I don't read fiction for realism.
I admit that a lot of the novel is contrived, like Seo Euiwoo being overpowered to the point that the whole novel's conflict could be resolved if he just used his S-class esper powers to take over Korea or something. But I love that the novel is more about his development and understanding what it means to be a human being, and learning that there's more to life than just plain violence.
I don't like nonconsensual content, but I don't drop novels just because it's present. I don't like the novel because it has nonconsensual content; I like the novel because Seo Euiwoo and Kwon Jaejin have a complex relationship forced by a dystopian esper/guide setting. Even the Korean commenters said that the main couple would've had a good relationship from the start if circumstances were different. But that's not this story, and nobody is forcing you to read a story that has nonconsensual content. I'm particularly flabbergasted at the idea that a story could ever "justify" nonconsensual content in the first place... not that this story was ever trying to do that. We can disagree all day about the interpretation of their power dynamics (I think Kwon Jaejin stands his ground quite a lot and is able to draw boundaries that are followed by Euiwoo), and that's just an agree-to-disagree moment. I'm more confused by the blatant virtue signaling from other readers over an R-19 BL smut novel that came with the appropriate trigger warnings. At least it did in the original source material.
Sorry for being a total Shen Yuan (mentally ill reader moment), but it's baffling to think that reviewers have to be lectured about consent in another review. I'm just a guy who read a novel; I don't know why we’re being told that nonconsensual content is bad when, yeah, clearly it is. We know, thanks.