For some reason, I thought the story had concluded, leaving me stranded. It seems I might need to continue with machine translation. The main character is intriguing. Although he considers himself a villain, I'd argue he's more like an unreliable narrator, a victim of circumstances. Given the messed-up state of his family, he could have had a much darker path. He wasn't perfect, but he genuinely worked hard to achieve his position.
The backstory reveals a shocking reality: coming from a family with a strong Esper legacy, his identity as a Guide led them to reject him, treating him as disloyal. His older brother manipulated and abused him emotionally and physically, forcing him into guiding. The father holds Guides in contempt, covering up for the brother, while the MC struggles for acceptance without success.
In his previous life, we learn that the MC sought therapy to overcome his issues. It's comprehensible why he was fixated on ML, as she represented hope in his bleak existence. His obsession with her, though misguided, stemmed from a deep desire for connection. Unfortunately, his actions to win her over inadvertently pushed them apart.
As I progress, I've reached more intense parts of the story. It might be around chapter 120 when ML finally succeeds in... well, let's just say it involves a significant development. So far, the MC has abstained from penetrative sex, despite his past encounters and plans in his重生 life. Surprisingly, given the morally ambiguous nature of the Guide world, he's found partners who respect his boundaries.
Overall, the writing is commendable, with compelling character motivations that make sense. However, readers should be cautious due to the presence of potentially triggering themes.