Even with the occasional bumps in translation, this is a beautifully and masterfully written story. The inescapable tragedy of the Wei family left me deeply upset. Despite the limited time we spent with them, I found myself crying real tears for the gentle husband we would never get to know, and the brothers who didn’t make it home to their wives and children. If this weren’t so well written, I might have cursed the author for being excessively cruel, but the way so many conspiring factors piled up against them really makes it feel like fate. They were so helplessly entangled in the political intrigues of a crumbling dynasty that it’s no wonder the Wei family couldn’t escape being backstabbed and used as a scapegoat. Their loyalty to an incompetent and treacherous family proved to be their downfall.
I found it fascinating that in both lives, some things could not be changed, almost as if it was the power of a character's fate. The sister didn’t marry Wei Jun as a substitute bride and chose another husband to escape hardship, but still ended up a wartime widow. The Wei family men still died on the battlefield, falsely accused, and Wei Yun still returned as the only surviving avenger. And Chu Yu still accompanied a man during the darkest moments of his life as he sought justice for himself and his family.
Perhaps fate writes in broad strokes, and the power of humans lies in filling in the blanks with whatever happiness we can. In the first life, Chu Yu chose a man who didn’t know how to appreciate her and gave him everything. Her fierce loyalty, passionate spirit, and robust health were all spent on warming the coldest, darkest winters of a man’s life. She chose differently in her second life, but she still shows that same stubborn willingness to burn up her life for the sake of others. Hopefully, it will all be worth it this time.
In some ways, this story almost seems like a purgatory for the ex-husband, who only realized in retrospect that the most precious things are the sacrifices made for you in the dark, the single burning candle offered to you when you needed it the most. This time, he’ll have to suffer and survive in the dark by himself, which, as Wei Yun puts it, is possible but so much harder now that he has known the light. I can’t wait to see how much he regrets.